Paranoia Sets In

Sigh, I don't know what is wrong with me. Is it just me or is it true that all my friends are backing out on me. I don't know, I want answers. I want to know if I'm actually surrounded by true friends. A few true friends I can actually count on is Ray(Though we have stupid petty quarrels at times and we create a mountain out of a molehill on several minute issues, you're a trustworthy person, a person whom I can actually trust), Maxine(Albeit I knew you for a short time, you've earned my trust by giving constructive advices. Sometimes I do things to anger you and you do to =P, you're still very trustworthy, I trust you with my secrets.), Marlisa(My very best disturb partner who actually has the patience to put up with me, you rarely do things to annoy me, and when you do, it starts from me.). Are these all the people I can trust?
My school life isn't very good. I've no confidence in my weakest subject, Physics. Just took my Chinese test and I'd say that it didn't go very well. And I'm addicted to online games that I just can't break free from the hold these manipulative games have on me. People just don't bother understanding each other anymore. Its always "every man for himself". I mean what is going on with the world? Why are there so much conflicts, why can't people co-exist and live in harmony. Everyone has flaws, but some people just seem completely oblivious to these flaws. My friend, which I have no intention to disclose his name, has just taken a complete different attitude towards me. 3 years of friendship and suddenly, his every sentence drips with sarcasm, every single word is a snide remark, hitting back at me. I just don't know if I can actually trust him, I don't know if he is my true friend. I don't know.(Plenty of Internal Conflict within me at the moment, pardon me for that) Why is it so that people can be so hypocritical, so hypocritical that the entire society is now such a scary place to live in? Recurring images of my friends and me keep flashing inside my head. Is this a premonition? Is my life at its peak or at its abyss? My future is completly bleak to me, I can't see anything. I don't know anything. My Final Year Examinations is going to be a complete washout. Why am I such a failure? I don't know. I need answers, I want answers. Someone please help me. Lord Please help me, Please watch over me. Please help me tide over this perilous period of my life.

Thank you to everyone in 3Unity.

Well, finally decided to start blogging after a long break. Well, I do not want to be part of the class disputes anymore, it's really been getting irksome and laborious. I've decided to take a neutral stand against everyone in this class. Hopefully it lasts. No more open wars or whatsoever from me.
I really do understand why people are so sick of the never-ending disputes in our class, finally experienced the melancholy and detriment experienced by the targets of these brutal and malicious verbal attacks. I'm really elated and gratified that someone yanked that viel away from my eyes to see the actually clear and sharp personality which doesn't prove to be so bovine and prosaic anymore. This post is written in gratitude to everyone who was trying to change the unknown efficacy of this seemingly "eternal" conflict and dispute.
I'll bear a neutral attitude if not positive disposition towards every single individual in the class, thus contributing to the travails towards a united class, living up to our name of 3UNITY.


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After today, it was a completely different outlook I had to the class compared to that of what I had when I entered school this morning. It was a complete bleak day for me in school, until I realised that I actually have friends that care and people who are particularly petty and spread whatever you tell them. It's a great day today and I think I've grown closer to the class by abit and its such a wonderful day. When I left school today, I was thinking to myself, "If tomorrow will be as good as today, I'll anticipate coming to this institute of learning everyday!" Hopefully school is as good as today tomorrow! =)

Originality ROCKS!

Well, most people could be wondering why did we include the "Please do not depict any part of our skit without 3U's consent, originality rocks!". Hmm, I do wonder why indeed. Please if you’re one of those people who actually wheedled out the song we included in our 3Unity’s Racial Harmony Day Skit, go far away in case you get really peeved after reading my fantastic blog entry about your class and a particular person, whose name I’ll not disclose, hoping that he has enough common sense to realize his mistakes. The song “Ojos Asi” you might argue is not OUR song, but it is a song we have used, please give us due respect and ask for our consent or at least tell us before including it in your skit.
How would I define the word “skit”. To me a skit is more acting than dancing. Yes I admit that the 3Unity’s skit had a lot of dance parts as well. But do you dare say you acted better than us? Sadly, No, you did not. It was just a messy and haphazard plip plop splat splot pile on stage with constant slapdash mixtures of songs. I’ve made my point very obvious, and you know who I am aiming at. The song already gave a big hint. If you still don’t get it, I’m amazed as such dense people actually exist in this world, co-existing with me. Why don’t you take the time to reflect upon your actions, making you look despicable and inane? Why are you so desperate to plagiarize a song that we have used not a few years back but a few months? Where is your originality?! The word “ORIGINALITY” is something that is being emphasized and emblazoned everywhere in Singapore and what are you doing about it? Nothing, apparently nothing but trying to go against it. And none of you buggers actually bothered to raise any objections against the actions of what you people have done? NONE OF YOU?! Don’t give me that bullshit that no one in your class has a sense of originality. The song has not made you stand out from the rest but made you sink lower and less obvious. One more reasons why the councilors liked you people so much is because of …….
Shawna Rocks! I do not know what I am trying to say, its for me to know and for you to find out, apparently it could be too much for your pea-sized brain to handle but please, handle your brain with caution, it’s a most delicate matter you might ever possess. Why do they like you to the extent to put you guys up for BOTH performances? Is it because of your dancing? Because that’s the only thing that is actually proficient in your entire performance of haphazard slapdash monstrosities. Just because of your dancing? Dancing hardly makes up the majority of the skit, it’s the acting, creativity. Which you have none, ZILCH.
Please refer to the dictionary for the meaning of any words you do not know. Given the handful of brain cells you have, its no wonder you have to refer to a dictionary to check what I was actually referring to.
P.S. I’m may and may not be referring to the whole class, to those people who wanted to speak up but feared some dumbass, please muster up your courage harder next time. Thanks. Btw, you stupid fucking parrot, you suck and please go look for a better person to BUG. Please find the definition for bugger and you’ll know what I mean by BUG.

Yes, You’ve probably guessed it right, this is a post to defend the so-called “bitches and bastards of 3U”. This blog post is on behalf of another reason, the issue that set the whole of 3Unity apart, the united class has rearranged itself to a 3Untied. This controversial issue has been making people take stands, the question “which side are you on?” have been asked and heard many a times in class.

You may think why we hate this particular person, Reuben so much. Why I wonder? Some people may think that its because of sheer prejudice, other people think its because of biasness, just because we cannot see things his way. Well, its reverse psychology. If its our fault because WE cannot see things HIS way, thus why isn’t it his fault that HE cannot see things OUR way? That’s a bit out of the topic, fine. Digression. What I do not like about him is not because of his face, etc. etc. The reasons which for I hate him, which for I dislike him, is because of things that you do to me since secondary 1 that have been accumulating, thus my paramount hate for you. I do not wish to disclose such personal reasons. You know what you’ve done in secondary 1 to make me hate you so much Reuben. You do. YOU DO =). According to the information I’ve been getting from your considerably close friends, names I will not disclose.

Your bad points:
-You lie to save your hide (Even though the lie makes you betray your friend)

-You throw your integrity away

-You tell things to selected people for certain reasons

-You backstab people

-You push the blame to other people when it comes to responsibility

-You do not listen to people’s advice no matter how they phrase it.

Your Good Points:

-You’re a good listener for people’s problems

-You face life with a positive outlook.

Well, you keep bringing to the point that I don’t care for your feelings. You tell Liana you’re breaking down on the inside because of all the snide remarks I’ve made about you. Many of these “bitches and bastards” have realised that you tell these supposedly breaking down stuff to a Liana for a reason. Only just have you started hanging around with Marlisa, Geraldine, Diyana, Liana, Qing Jun and Renu? Why of all these 6 people you’ve chose Liana. There are many reasons that we’ve thought off. Is it because she is Ryan’s girlfriend? Thus she’d be easier to influence? Did you tell her because you know in that whole clique, Diyana and Qing Jun hates you, Marlisa and Geraldine are neutral, Renu and Liana are taking sides with you. So of course, being the furtive fumbler, you crossed Diyana and Qing Jun out of your list, because they hate you. Then you moved on to Marlisa and Geraldine, they’re easier for you to talk through, but even though they take a stand and side you, they will not be able to do much as they’re very quiet and recluse in class. So you crossed them out of your list as well. Onto Renu and Liana, you know that Renu is more garrulous then Liana, thus Renu’s words aren’t very credible. So you crossed her out of the list. Using the method of elimination, you’ve found your cream of the crop, Liana. She and Ryan together, makes it more to your advantage, you are now more influential because of Ryan’s relationship with Liana. Thus you chose Liana to tell to, telling that you’re all breaking down on the inside because of my malicious remarks, now Marlisa was defending you when I was illuminating them on my opinion of you while we were in the bus. She wanted to say “On the defence of Reuben…). I cut her off, I wasn’t done, I explained everything on the bus ride from Simpang Bedok, to Tampines Interchange, and I spent another 10 minutes justifying my hate for you and carefully mitigating every single ambivalent points that described my hate for you that have been etched deeply in my heart.

Post Note: To a certain someone who spread this controversial issue to certain people, I believe you know who you are. I hope that you’ll be able to keep this problem within 3Unity, as this is a problem WITHIN our class. Keep it to yourself; I hope you’ll stomach my extremely unwarranted demands as your impression of this person must be pretty good to stand up for him even though the mistakes he have made is so blatant.

Dedicated to our FAVORITE teacher!

Today was a fantastic day until homework time. I am going to rant for quite awhile and it is going to be nasty. Wee! Here we go! No more holding back.

After a seemingly long 8 weeks, the term is coming to an end. Today in class, a few of us have perceived the insensitive side of Miss Soh. After what Marlisa done, buying the flowers and actually taking time out of her busy schedule to arrange a bouquet of flower for you. All you can say is “I don’t like plastic flowers”, “I like moon roses”, “You guys should take flower arrangement courses”. Excuse me? Please get back to Earth? Not everyone is your pawn to manipulate? So what if we’re your students? We have to take whatever you throw at us and what you say in class is “I’m very upset”, “Life is very hard for a co-form of 3U” and “I don’t care”? You tell us you don’t care? What in the world is wrong with you? You can say “I don’t care!” and we can’t? Is that meant to be fair? You tell us “Only god is fair, I’m not god so I’m not fair”. Then why do you even bother to ask us the question “You’re not being fair to the teachers 3U”? Sorry Miss Soh but we are not god, thus we are not fair. Let me repeat, WE ARE NOT GOD, SO WE ARE NOT FAIR. Well, maybe I’m an exception, but whatever. The point here is to say that we cannot be fair to be everyone. To be fair to a certain party, there HAS to be losses, Give and take. You are just taking and not giving. Sure you’re a great teacher and stuff, but please, we are students? Please spare us some concern and we are humans with WITH feelings. We are not some stupid unfeeling idiots whom you can tell to us “You don’t care”, “I don’t like plastic flowers”, blah blah blah. Please, students do not hold a steady income, thus we cannot guarantee what you want and what we do is to your liking. EXCUSE ME? This is the real world, not your fantasy, your fairyland where everyone is up to you to manipulate.

Because of what you said, Marlisa cried, and you didn’t even bother to tell us that what you said was meant for. You told us that “Mr. Yong taught you all for a longer time, you can give him both”. I agree fully with that statement, I wonder who actually wanted to make a bouquet of flower for you? Marlisa. You make hasty generalizations; you say that you’re unhappy with what the class for what we’ve done. In the whole class, Marlisa is the best student and the most rule-abiding student. The second to Marlisa I can think of is Pamela. And you always said, “Girls were born to be pampered” So why do you do this to US? Why do you tell Marlisa “I don’t like Plastic Flowers”? I’ve said it once and I’ll say it a few more times. STUDENTS HAVE FEELINGS!! STUDENTS HAVE FEELINGS!! STUDENTS HAVE FEELINGS!! STUDENTS HAVE FEELINGS!! STUDENTS HAVE FEELINGS!! STUDENTS HAVE FEELINGS!! STUDENTS HAVE FEELINGS!! STUDENTS HAVE FEELINGS!! STUDENTS HAVE FEELINGS!!

This is my blog; a place where I can write freely and you cannot stop me, so there. This isn’t done when I am in school uniform, as you said “Whatever you do outside, none of my business but when you do it in school uniform it becomes my business”, so this isn’t your business, I’m expressing my thoughts and feelings, lest I explode and cause an explosion bigger than Lake Toba, which is supposedly the world’s largest caldera.


*P.S. I have quoted what you said in class, so its 100% accurate and correct.

Singaporeans are cute!

Why do I say that in my title, “Singaporeans are cute”?? Most people would be taking my title literally. Well, carry on reading to see what I mean.

What do I mean by my title? Singaporeans have a very funny personality. They try to act generous. A classic example is the “絕對 Superstar!” case. Many people give the partially blind 伟联 votes, I cannot fathom why do they vote for him? Some people vote for 伟联 thus eliminating 俊楊. This is something that I’m very upset about. How can you vote for 伟联 when he cannot qualify for a superstar! Many people say that they vote for him because of talents. Fine, it is undeniable that he has talent, but please pull apart the veil in front of your eyes. Who can sing better? Who can dance better? 伟联? I ardently doubt it. It is patent that 俊楊 can sing, dance better. Who has more interaction with the audience when on the stage? 俊楊 wins hands down. If you’re one of those dumb bitches in my school that say that 俊楊 cannot sing, please slap yourself with a placenta and think again. If you say that 伟联 sings better than 俊楊, please go dig your ears, make sure they’re clean and listen to the singing again. If you vote for someone because of his or her attitude in a SUPERSTAR competition, you should have a personality check. Some people vote for 伟联’s attitude, let me tell you that this competition is about Singing, Dancing and having rapport with the audience. Now we move onto the word “Superstar” Definition of a superstar according to the Oxford concise English Dictionary “An extremely famous or renowned actor, film star, musician”. Ok, not what we’re looking for in this current competition. I pondered upon this question when I was thinking at night in my bed, What KIND of superstar? I repeat, WHAT KIND of superstar? Ok, “WHAT KIND” is very important. I’m not being biased, but in the first place, the judges should not have let 伟联 into the competition. Why do I say that? Because this is a superstar, knowing the fact that 伟联 cannot dance. Why do you let him into the competition, unless that this competition is renamed and called “Disabled 絕對 Superstar!” or “絕對 Superstar for the disabled”, now this will be a completely different issue as 伟联 can sing well, and he has the same defect as the rest of the competitors, they cannot dance. Then it will rely on singing alone, or maybe some rapport. Now we go back to the topic, it is CLEAR, EVIDENT, PALPABLE that 俊楊 outshines 伟联 in every aspect of the term “Superstar”, if you are a fair person, you would obviously vote for 俊楊, if you people are still so recalcitrant about the fact that 伟联 is better than 俊楊, than I am speechless, you people are hopeless, unsalvageable!

You can say that I’m biased, mean, evil, 缺德, whatever, I cannot be bothered to quarrel with you shallow people who voted for him as it is so evident that 伟联 is not as strong as 俊楊 in terms of EVERYTHING a superstar needs. Do not, I repeat, DO NOT give me that shit about attitude. As 俊楊 has good attitude too. PERIOD.

Today...

Well, today was generally uneventful. Therefore I shall spare you readers and myself from the boring front part of the day. Everything was fine, just that we had two continual assignments (C.A. a.k.a. class tests), Chemistry and Mathematics. Not much problem for either of them, now we can screw those papers, the C.A. is over! The main part of the action started from our Form Teacher Contact Time (FTCT).

Miss Soh, our co-form teacher was late. Well, she has always been punctual and this time when she was late, definitely suspicious. As we all know, there is a reason behind her lateness. It is because she heard from some other teachers who saw a couple from our class kissing at the traffic light, or was it the junction? Heck, I cannot remember, lets not bother about the trivial details. I can already guess who it is. Well, I would not name any names on my blog, as this is the Internet, something that can cause a great hullabaloo in the nation as the influence of the Internet is growing to a frightening issue. Everyone knows that the Internet is a current fixation and the Internet has evolved to almost a daily necessity for many. Even I, feel out of sorts when I do not surf a few blog sites and some game websites, etcetera. So Miss Soh told us that anything we do outside school is not her business but when we’re wearing uniforms, it becomes her business. Sometimes I really do ponder on the questions, “Are teachers having too much stress trying to manage problematic students? ” I think that being a teacher is a very arduous profession. First you have to mark all of the homework you issue your students. 41 students have to do a SINGLE piece each while 1 teacher has to mark 41 PIECES of work. Furthermore, some students refuse to hand in their homework and they remain recalcitrant about the subject matter. Wow, I have digressed so much. Well, back to the main track, it is very palpable that who are the “culprits”. After that, she talked about some other business, which I believe isn’t a good thing to write about on the Internet and share with other schoolmates about what she said.

After the long homily we got during FTCT, it was time for Assembly. Time for us to watch and enjoy the air-conditioned hall in Singapore’s sweltering weather. The first item was a song by our school’s Chinese Orchestra (CO). OH MY GOODNESS!! What is up with the horrible and evident flaws that stuck out by a mile! Ok, kindly let me elaborate. The moment the orchestra started, the drum did a wrong tempo count, so did the conductor, the whole piece was done haphazardly. By the way it was a student conductor. Next, many of the CO members played without making the mark. It was horrible, they didn’t manage to hold on till the next note when they were, thus going off suddenly or making a slight squeak, which isn’t really evident. But if the whole group people playing the same instrument lose control at the same time, it is bloody obvious. And a lot of the CO instruments were not tuned. Acknowledge a tuner please; get your instruments on tune and not sound like some hoax gone wrong. How they ever pulled off a gold in the Singapore Youth Festival (SYF) 05’ remains a big query. Well, the 2^nd piece is a lot better, but still horrible. Then here comes the problem of off beat again. They played off beat when the middle of the song drew near, very evident. Then the 3^rd song, they reverted to their stupid ways of playing the instrument by trying to hold out as long as possible and died off only 5 seconds after the conductor stopped the performance. Glad they finally stopped. Not obeying a conductor, death punishment!! Humph! Was I glad when the whole performance was over.

For the moment we’ve all been anticipating, the 2^nd aesthetics group, the dance club!! Yea! Albeit I’m not inside the dance club, I like the way they dance a lot, and I actually admire them, for what reason I don’t know. Maybe the way they move is so sleek?

Ok, I didn’t like the first dance item, it wasn’t good. There was this person who looked liked Maxine so we called her the MI(Maxine Impersonator). Lets scrutinize the dance item and then point out the mistakes.

1. The performance wasn’t good, the steps were simple and unrefined.
2. The dance item wasn’t synchronized, there was not a single hint of synchronization throughout the WHOLE dance item.
3. They had funny sticks, which were supposed to be part of the dance item, enhance the ambience, which apparently didn’t help but mar the whole thing.
4. Ok, now that we’ve pointed out three of the most obvious problems. Lets proceed onto the smaller details:
   1. The MI had uneven eyebrows, obviously one thick one thin.

2. One of the Malay girls in the front row(whose name I don’t know) had shoes on the wrong feet.

Hmm, seems like we’ve got everything, now lets proceed to the second dance item which was fantastic, I loved it.

The 2^nd dance item was great, kindly let me elaborate. The whole dance was synchronized, albeit Marlisa looked weird while Charlene was carrying her, the rest of the dance steps was executed with acute precision. Many of the steps were complex and hard to execute. The final formation in a pyramid with 2 at the front spreading out to 5 at the back was meticulously precise. (Do not ask me why did I use two words simultaneously when they mean the same thing. According to Literature, Repetition serves as Emphasis, thus I’m emphasizing the fact that the whole formation was good and precise.) Albeit the funny costume and awkward colour matching, the whole dance was carried out in unblemished perfection. Chee Yang was good on stage, but he was rather stiff and rigid, but that was hardly unnoticeable, you guys were great on stage and extra credit goes to Chee Yang and the other lower Secondary performers. Such a few number of Lower Secondary Students performing with the preponderance of seniors and furthermore, the stage was so dominated by an overbearing amount of senior dancers.

Well the assembly programmes were generally passable but the senior dance item was the thing that made my day. By the way, the “cookies'n'crème” who tagged on Chee Yang’s blog was not me. The last post I made was the spelling error of retarded. If those who read the tag entry and is so recalcitrant on the fact that that “cookies'n'crème” who tagged is me, I have nothing to say. As for the Impersonator of me, Please, if you have the courage to talk about people, criticize people, I wish that you have the gall to own up as well, write your own name, stop trying to get me into trouble by using my name. I'd never say something like that about my own friend and what you're trying to do is futile as I have utmost faith in my friends. Taint yourself for all I care, but PLEASE do not taint my identity of cookies'n'crème, thank you very much. Please have the gall to own up and prove me wrong, you cowardly apronstrings-tied boy.

絕對Superstar.

After watching the results at 11.30pm last night, I was thinking to myself, Please let Kelly and JunYang get in! After the results came out for the females, I was overjoyed as Kelly made it to the grand finals. All I did was pray that Jun Yang could get in as well, so, when Jeff Wang said ＂請啓動電腦！＂I was praying like an idiot, hoping that it would be Jun Yang and not Wei Lian. Let us talk about the pros and cons between the both of them.

Jun Yang:

-Nice Voice

-Better Looking than Wei Lian

-Better scores than the Wei Lian according to judges

-Stiff Body

-Cannot dance well.

Wei Lian:
-Nice voice

-Average Looking

-Good at picking songs

-Partially Blind

-Cannot dance

-Lower scores than Jun Yang according to the judges

Comparing between those two points, its undeniable than Jun Yang should’ve taken the cake. Why did Wei Lian win? Because of his “supporters”. I personally am very sore about Jun Yang’s elimination, he is clearly stronger than Wei Lian in practically every extent of a SUPERSTAR. The only thing I can think of Wei Lian being good is his attitude.

好吧，我已把所有的話都說出來了．誰不滿意，請任意抨擊與批評。